Confession: For the past month, I haven’t wanted to do any sort of Bible study.
This past month has not been a pleasant one, and I tried so hard to keep my act together that the thought of doing a Bible study was unthinkable. It would open the floodgates and I wasn’t ready to do that. Instead, I did a lot of praying.
No Bible reading.
I felt like I was in survival mode, and I couldn’t bear the thought of having to deal with all the emotions I didn’t understand. So God was my lifeline in prayer. Constant prayer. But I couldn’t handle anything else.
However, today, I’m ready.
[pullquote]God was my lifeline in constant prayer. That’s all I could do.[/pullquote]
This past week has let me sort of “get over” the stress of last month, and today, I sat down and finally fed my soul what it was craving.
I opened up a study book that I had done one day of the study last year before putting it on the shelf. It’s called Me, Myself, and Lies by Jennifer Rothschild. Today’s topic was anxiety, which was fitting for me, as I get anxious over really stupid stuff.
Like restaurants. Restaurants are kind of like prisons. You aren’t in control of anything and you’re stuck there until your waiter decides to let you pay. Maybe not like prison. Idk…I kinda hate going to restaurants these days.
Anyways…it felt so good to open my Bible and read some of the passages and get some thoughts out on paper. My plan is to do part of this book every day this week. We’ll see how that goes.
[reminder]Have you ever felt a time where you didn’t want to open your Bible?[/reminder]